The real raw Story

This is a re blog of something I posted a few months ago.
Not only a re blog, but the reason it is a re blog is because the first post was not true and a pack of lies.
I could excuse it and say I didn’t mean those things and I was just real angry and upset when I said the things I said. Which is partially true. But no. it portrayed someone in the wrong way and described them as someone that really they are not.

So I am re blogging the real story,
Of past events that occurred.
The truth.
What I’ve done,
What others have done,
And hope that all will be amended.
Maybe. Hopefully. At least partially, as much as I can.
No matter what the outcome…

In 2008 a girl named Rylee and I went out and were together, firmly for around 2 months. During those two months we were together, to say a lot happened would be an understatement.

I took you for granted Rylee. I didn’t love you the way I wish I did. I didn’t always want to be with you when I was. God and church can’t excuse any of it; I treated you unfairly and wasn’t always upfront about how I felt. I should’ve had the guts to stand up for what I truly wanted at the time. But because I didn’t, I lost you. But because of my own foolishness and stupidity I lost you for good…
One night you, bonnie and I hung out by a creek in Gisborne and smoked shisha.
Bonnie was on the phone to Sam half the time.
But then I wanted to speak to bonnie about my re-occurring feelings for her. When I think about it now I have no idea why I really needed to talk to her. You didn’t feel right about it, but you trusted me that much anyway and let me go away to talk to her. And that’s how it happened. We kissed. While you sat 10 meters away freezing your butt off. Then that night…I slept with you, without even mentioning what had happened earlier. I didn’t even tell you what had happened, until a few days later you found out through someone else. But believe me when I say I was going to tell you, I just found it so incredibly hard to say it. I wouldn’t even forgive myself…

But now…Bonnie...
You cheated on Sam
You lied.
You schemed to bash or kill rylee and Sam and did so at that party late 2008.
Evil things you have done,
Incredibly mean things, like posting up those photos of Sam on myspace,
Spread lies about people you supposedly love, or loved.
And in a previous post I went off at rylee for sleeping with some guy when we were fighting because bonnie told me that happened.
BUT:
1. Rylee and I didn’t have a fight
2. Rylee didn’t sleep with some guy
3. Bonnie is an evil bitch.
4. All that was not true at all.

Bonnie had this theory in her head that Rylee had gotten with Sam before her and Sam had even broken up. But that’s not true. What really happened was, Bonnie and Sam broke up. And it was only then that rylee started to let herself think that, “yeah, I’d like to have a girlfriend like that”. And it was only after they had broken up and things had settled that Rylee and Sam got together. That’s the truth.

You told someone you slept with Rylee to get back at Sam and that you slept with me to get back at Rylee. NOT TRUE AT ALL. So that’s all last year was. I’m not saying Bonnie and I slept together, but last year Rylee asked me if Bonnie and I were back together. I said no and I asked if Bonnie knew anything about it and she just got pissed off and said, “That’s it, we’re together.” I knew it didn’t feel right. I’m not saying we slept together, because we didn’t. But we did talk and kiss and she acted like the victim, when really she’s victimized everybody else.
Some friend you are Bonnie. Rylee has informed me of the things you have said about me behind my back that I have been totally unaware of. It’s making me think twice about you. You’re so two-faced. I can’t believe how blind I was to it all.


Whoever reads this, I want you to know that Rylee did nothing wrong whatsoever. At all. She’s a good person and never did any wrong by Bonnie, Sam or me. I did wrong by Rylee by not being honest with her. Bonnie did wrong by spreading stupid lies about all of us.

Rylee,
I’m sorry I didn’t love you the way you loved me back then
I’m sorry I broke your heart
I’m sorry I broke your trust
I’m sorry for cheating on you
I’m sorry for the things I said in the previous post about all this
I’m sorry I got it all wrong
I’m sorry for believing Bonnie over you
I’m just really sorry.

And Sam,
I’m sorry for hurting you in any way because I know I must have.
I’m sorry for kissing Bonnie when you were both together.
I’m sorry for everything.

And I’m damn glad you and Rylee are very happy now.

So that’s it. That’s the real story about this matter. The truth.

The end.


And by the way Rylee,
If it means anything from me…
HAPPY BIRTHDAY :)