For Quinton

These are my answer to your questions:

1. Did you ever really like me the way i like you?
No. but that isn’t to take away from the fact that I did once like you and have feelings for you. But they faded.

2. were you ever really willing to give it a chance?
Yes, but who I really am can’t just try change myself. I was willing to give the 'gender I don’t go for' a chance. But do you realise how scary and hard that is? (not in the sense of scary that you think). Because think about it.. A straight person is happy to be with a guy, happy to sleep with them. But a gay girl wouldn’t want that guy touching them, and theyd call it rape if they didn’t want sex with them but tried. you know? i don't know..that’s what it wouldv felt like for me.
I cant force myself to do something I’m not into it.

3. how you do really feel about me now?
You’re my friend, a really good friend. That’s all.
Don’t push it or you’ll lose me...

You can’t just wait on me to turn around
Because you’ll be waiting forever.
I’m a lesbian.
That’s it.
You’re my friend, and that won’t change
You have to accept it, just like I have.

i love you pal