i could kill myself right now
and that wasn't a figure of speech
i could actually go ahead and kill myself
there's no one here to stop me, i'm home alone.
there's no one to call,
no one to come around,
i could just do it.
but i won't.
but i could.
and i want to.
and i don't want to.
but i would like to.
but i'm not going to.
and i'm not gonna go on a hopeful rant saying, 'i'm not going to because i know deep down there's hope and that's why i'm living on' but no, i'm not doing that, because i don't feel particularly hopeful right now.
i don't feel hopeful at all.
i don't find a point in anything at the moment.
everything's going to shit.
but i'm not returning,
i'm not, so piss off about it okay.
i've fucked everything up and i can't see any way of fixing it but maybe time
i don't know.
i'm here
still
that counts as something i suppose.
About Me
- HAN.
- Twenty years old; Queer; Currently unemployed; Universalist; Hoarder; Single; Full time Zeenster, part time artist and poet/writer. On here you will see me post zine reviews, updates on my zines and other things like that, my drawings and some poetry.
you could but then that would mean i have to find another friend as awesome as you and don't say you're not awesome because you are and finding someone as awesome as you is hard to find. glad you're still here. don't you ever think about leaving this world. it's not worth it you only one chance to live you're life make the most of it don't waste it. love you :)
ReplyDelete:) thanks. love you too
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