laugh until your brain pops through your eyes

pissed off and angry yet again at my mum.
when will you fucking learn?!
when will you fucking get it?
when will you fucking hell stop?!
why are you so fucking blind, thinking everyone else is messed up and you're doing fine.
you don't fool any of us.
are you that fucking stupid?!
you'll lose your fucking job if you don't stop going to work drunk.
you'll crash my car or kill us like you nearly almost have several times before if you don't stop drink driving. i even could have losed my learners one time.
you'll lose more than your glasses if you don't stop. period.
Dad asked you to leave once
because he didnt know what else to do
what can he do, what can we do.
its all up to you
you think wer invisible
you think we dont give a shit
youv been to rehab, sif thats a solution if your mind stays the same friggin way as it was before
what are you gonna fucking do irene??!
you gonna wait til you're that out of control again that you couldnt even control your own bowels. you gonna wait till you're so out of it you wander from a special school occasion and smash your face in the pavement? you gonna wait til you ruin anoter birthday party like you embarrassed lil and i at our 16th?
huh?!?!?!?
...yet i still love, we all do. no matter how much we tolerate it.
you are my mum after all.
also just stop treating me like i dont know what im doing or 'where im at' or you think whats best for me, sometimes your right, but alot of things your wrong and have no fucking idea.
and im actually fantastic and you dont know it.
dont you think i cant wait til i get a job, so i can leave this house
and be more independent and release the burden off of you and dad
yet you think im scared to. think i cant do anything on my own, i can speak for myself now.
same goes for my license and car. i would be getting lessons right now if i only had the money, same goes with fixing my car.
ugh. whatever.
i just sound like a whiny teenage bitch.
but this is the truth, and i can vent however much i fucking want to.
ahh. deep breaths. moving on...