Yesterday

Church.
it was...
overwhelming at times
intense also.
i was anxious, scared and terrified
but then i went down for prayer..and felt more at peace
i even smiled
things changed..
i have friends..
pastor ange came up to me and wrapped her arms around me and said,
"don't you ever do that again." loving me, being there
then made sure i wasnt alone during lunch
pastor debbie, thankyou, even though it was intense
i know i needed to go up there
my friends, my intern family, they were there
thankyou..
i know i have people around me
i know..i just..im tired of swallowing lies

I AM NOT ALONE
I AM NOT STUPID

this is not me
i am not alone
i'm gonna get better


i'm not alone.
i'm getting better.