For good.

I’ve decided to turn straight edge, for real.
There are many reasons behind this decision.
But after watching Parkway Drive’s dvd, it kinda made me actually go forward with the decision haha. But yeah, I wanna live for some real fun and adventure :)
yay.

I seriously cannot believe you’re gone. I wish you were here; I could do with a friend and person like you in my life again. You were such a wonderful person, really wonderful. It’s a shame to think back to when I knew you and one memory is of one when bonnie stood you up and you got the worst sunburn ever, grr. But one was also when you kept giving me cuddles haha you were such a lovely person, so animated and bubbly and soo musical, I loved it.

I regret not finding the chance to get to know you better.
I hope you are well, wherever you are…

There's an ugly side to everyone.

SKATEBOARD THERAPY

i am lonely but never alone.

For Quinton

These are my answer to your questions:

1. Did you ever really like me the way i like you?
No. but that isn’t to take away from the fact that I did once like you and have feelings for you. But they faded.

2. were you ever really willing to give it a chance?
Yes, but who I really am can’t just try change myself. I was willing to give the 'gender I don’t go for' a chance. But do you realise how scary and hard that is? (not in the sense of scary that you think). Because think about it.. A straight person is happy to be with a guy, happy to sleep with them. But a gay girl wouldn’t want that guy touching them, and theyd call it rape if they didn’t want sex with them but tried. you know? i don't know..that’s what it wouldv felt like for me.
I cant force myself to do something I’m not into it.

3. how you do really feel about me now?
You’re my friend, a really good friend. That’s all.
Don’t push it or you’ll lose me...

You can’t just wait on me to turn around
Because you’ll be waiting forever.
I’m a lesbian.
That’s it.
You’re my friend, and that won’t change
You have to accept it, just like I have.

i love you pal